In My Art

We had our ups
we've had our downs
for every one of your smiles
I've known a thousand frowns

for every kiss
that you gave away
I still miss
waiting for the day
in life or death
or in between
how i ever loved someone
so careless and mean

toss along real feelings
the reality you seek
I get lost somewhere in meanings
your playlists on repeat
you know me so well
much better than any other
I cant seem to tell
how I never wanted to be considered like a brother

I've been with you these few years
through everything we'd done
but now i ask of you
why end something beautiful that we begun

I never asked you for anything
just don't toy with my head
your a mental case too
and soon they'll find me dead
because drifting through life
with nothing to look forward to
is not a life for me
when all I wanted was you
you knew me so well
unlike any other woman
I never knew a thing about you
was that too part of your plan
so now i ask of you
give me my salvation
give me reason to let this go or keep it
here's your invitation
you can call me
write me
sent a text
either way
what comes next?
i cant help but notice you lied in every word

I gave you nothing but brutal honesty
and honestly I wish I never heard
the people of this world will rip it apart
and every time I'll look for you
and I'll meet you in my art