i didnt get pregnaant because i wanted him to stay
i didnt get pregnant because i was in love
i didnt get pregnant on purpose.
i didnt stay because i cared
i didnt stay because i was happy
I stayed out of fear..
its simple....
i left because i had enough
I came back
because his words were sweet and promising..
i didnt cry because i was happy
i cried because i was alone
its simple..
i didnt ask for help
not because i didnt want to
not because i didnt know how to
i didnt ask for help..
its simple...
i couldnt
i didnt lie on purpose
i lied because i had to
ts not like i didnt fight
beecause i did
i even got the chance to watch my life
replay in seconds before my eyes
as i stared into the black empty monsterous eyes
of a man who put me on the floor
with his fingers around my neck
its simple..
i didnt stop fighitng because i was weak
i stopped fighting
because i new what i had to do
to keep breathing.
i didnt do wat i was told because i was his pet
i did wat i was told
once i stared down the barrel of a gun
i did wat i was told
once his thumb ran down the blade.
Its simple...
i didnt sit and take it,
i fought,
i spat back.
i found the strength to do what i had to...
"I love you."
"I never want to be without you."
"Im sorry."
"I know baby, its my fault."
I didnt get pregnant because i was in love.
I didnt get pregnant because i wanted him to stay
its simple...
i wanted to sleep...
its simple...
you do what you have to do,
to survive.
its really not that simple.
The strength that pushed me through
and kept me alive
came from a tiny little heart stowed away deep within my tummy...
The strength that keeps me going even to this day..
waking up every morning and wrapping my son in my arms
seeing his smile and knowing that he's safe,
