Guarded

Hiding my face in my blanket
i'm trying to avoid you
i feel your fingers entwined in my hair
brushing my cheek, making me tense

i've got to be strong
can't risk being real
i want to be near you
but only in my dreams
if i give into you now
i'll never wanna dream again

your warm breath on my neck
so close yet so distant
i know i can't have you
in the way that i want
sometimes i wonder
does your heart beat as fast as mine?

laying next to you i try to listen
but i'm disappointed with the rhythm
i can kiss you, i can touch you
but that's where it ends
when will i face
that we're only close friends?
committed to her, that's what you say
doesn't matter how far away
wish i could go back in time
when my heart was still mine
thanks for all that you've done
it was nice even if she won