Forever

Forever

Forever is a word we often use, for friendships and lovers, that we believe to be true. It's simple to think something amazing is never going to disintegrate. To look at the ones you love and think they are never going to disappear. Good times roll by with friendships and love. Saying forever is a way to lose the fear. A way to keep the smiles alive and the laughter from turning hallow. A never ending sense that the happy times are gold and treasures. Forever is a noun one cannot live without.

When you fall down you think there is always going to be someone to catch you before you hit the ground and witness it all vanish. You watch speechless and afraid as the ones you love walk away.

The one who promised he would always be here, no longer cares. Someone whom you trust the most and has said he loved you, no longer will take the time to care! Now you can barely stand, you have lost him for a while and surprisenly have felt the weight stat to lift bit by bit. Things change and you are afraid of what will twist next. Painfully words are darkening your bruises. Ruining your passion of destiny and fate. He no longer loves you and now there is somebody new. Quickly he comes to think their love is true.

You love him so much and when you lost him your whole world has fallen and forever broken. All that is left is misused promises and lies tumbling with wakened nightmares. As it sinks in more and more he has deserted you, he no longer loves you. Inside you may feel completely shattered. Unable to be repaired and full of your mistakes. Memories flash inside your mind. Moments that run out of time. Moments that now you don't feel fine as you are reliving them. Days that you wish you could rewind to or repeat. Every turn you take you are reminded of what was fake. Plus losing him has despair and pain you feel as if you just cannot take. Within you are knifes that won't stop stabbing, and wounds that will not stop remembering, and swords that will not quit trying to kill you with every cut through you!

Smiles rapidly spread upon your face with happiness and joy. A group of friends stands on either side of you. You hold them dear within your heart. Then a bomb goes off and blows you to sad bits. A train drives by and runs you over, driving them and dreams away. Leaving you in it's wake. Crushed and emotionally completely destroyed. One may be well aware that thy have become scarred.

Maybe you depend on an individual to such an amount that when you find yourself to the point you have fallen hard to rock bottom. You reached out your hand to whom you most trust for help and getting kicked, thrown sharp rocks upon. From then on reminders of what you have lost fight you at every turn and beat you up. With each passing memory a dagger shoots through you. Blood pours out from each vulnerable wound and deep gash.

Friendships you may try to grasp forever. I watch in heartbreak and regret at the times stolen and misplaced friendships. My eyes view in torture at the one I most treasure and am thankful for. Unfortunately she is no longer here. Darkness has filled her heart, as horror takes over her eyes, and terror engulfs her life. People whom she loves are leaving to death and some hit her with betrayal. Her true friend is out of reach and she feels so lonely and without a future.

Words sting your heart as if large sewing needles are stitching her sad words into your memory and adding to her presence in your heart. At troubling times you went to her when you had fallen to pieces. Now she comes to you with heavier weights upon her shoulders. Wishes to help her carry her life flood your vision, but nothing can bring her back to light. You try to be strong for her. Fear pours into her and you for her.

Dreams we carry for ourselves may fade away. What we were once so sure about, becomes a distend memory, a drifted emotion. As we grow up in time and change, our wishes switch and our personality changes our dreams. Some changes make love no longer existing and promises broken, dreams spilt. In our hearts what we want the greatest might be stomped upon.

Everlasting is only our hopes for the thing tucked happily in our hearts. Loves and enternal doves. In reality forever is only held by wishes. Anything can happen at any time. We were once so strong, but now have become weak! Reaching out to stars is my specialty. To yearn for my dreams to take place outide of me, but that too is only a far off dream.