An so I can hold u now I've felt you inside an out your the thing that keeps me around but you've taken advantaged taken for granted an so have I were so equally damaged wish I could make you mine wish I could take the time wish I were the one to make all the wrongs right, but I know better I know were we'll end up so I'm sorry today I apologize this way but I can't change what's happened I can't remake the past an make it last forever until the aftermaths adapted.
I realize now what I gave you.. though I needed you once, even more at the moment it feels so wrong it feels so worthless like it meant nothing to you at all , an it hurts, it pulls an it sure as he'll makes up for how good it felt. So I guess all things for a price an the taste of tears will soak what feelings were there as I'm drained of any will to ever feel for someone like this to ever allow trust given. An beside myself it remains so very hard for me to understand how you can be so cruel yet claim to love me so much, how you can cut off every memory of what once was, how you can look at me am not dare struggle with the tears from missing me so much...
So When I leave you, the places I go the others around me, have given the sense of what I've gone through an remind me that today is real an I have a life to pursue, so I remember all the wrongs an all the hurt all the emotions I come across are not the ones I wanted to. This is not where I belong, it's not upon what my love should be shed on. So I backdown I cower after the task is almost over. Then realize another mistake is made and I shudder to ask if it was worth the result before long? as I sit here in the open air breathe short breathes an try to exacerbate my minds thought process to turn towards something other.
What you wanted is in front of you now gone an its not even real was any of it true? Did I really hold something stronger than fiction
