Ole this poem is really really sad....Its almost like a cry from a person to their body to almost give up, just let you be. SO So sad to see someone go through those feelings! But pretty relate-able to a lot of people
I would just suggest some commas in this poem to help the flow of the piece, other than that great write!
I is a way to handle my inner life after a difficault situation, in my life. After more that 12 years, I am beginning to let lose, finally. That for your kind words