I have so many faults
that i chose to hide
i thought no one would know
that no one would care
but thats no longer true
for he cares and loves me
he asked something of me
that is most difficult
he asked to not have anything
to do with men or males in general
i am to not speak with them
it hurts to not be able to speak
with my guy friends
its hell but ill do it
because i love him
i want him to trust me
after i have messed up
i cant tell you how much i wish
that i didnt flirt with guys
knowing that i had him
the one i want to marry
the one i love with my heart
the one i have my future planned with
i cant lose him
not for anything
