Dying

by Heaven   Apr 18, 2012


My mind is made up:
I push away both love and life
and that rejection is my morphine;
even if god should suddenly appear to me
like a last-minute-peek-a-boo to snatch me from my grave, I would refuse with my last burst of strength his scattering of miracles.

Yes, i cross my heart:
if god should get involved
and come to save me against my will,
i'd kill myself in front of him to show him the meaning
of courage and contempt; i'd slash my wrist, I'd blow my brains out or even better i'd bury myself alive.

Fear of suffering doesn't rule out the fact
that sometimes a person has to die young
as a matter of principle, and such a superhuman
sacrifice is no longer beyond my strength.

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  • 12 years ago

    by Xanthe

    Hmm.. The topic itself is debatable and the message is clear and full of anger. As things blessed with life, I guess we all have to give a little sacrifice. Sometimes these sacrifices are painful and it seems we can't take it anymore, but trust me, God gives us what's best for us.. I've been on that same road, but I've managed to keep going..

    This piece came out as if to mock God

    "if god should get involved and come to save
    me against my will, i'd kill myself in front of
    him to show him the meaning of courage
    and contempt;"

    if God should get involved? He's always there. A little trial reveals you're strength, and your anger, resentment and bitterness just goes to show you don't have that strength.. to show the meaning of courage and contempt? you don't know the meaning of courage and contempt..

    Well, it's quite rare I find really honest poems.. This just shows the bitterness and anger a human has when they don't believe...

    -X

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