Why am I such a fool...
To believe someone like you,
that you would be mine?
I gave you a kiss:
and you gave me a kiss.
you stole my heart,
you stole my life,
You made me trust you,
I trusted you with my heart,
with my life,
and even my body.
you trained me to listen to you,
to satisfy you,
to do anything you told me to do.
i hated the "satisfy" part.
'cause you made me do bad stuff,
that my body didn't want yet.
when I didn't listen to you,
you would raise your voice,
raise your hand...
I felt your hard hand across my face.
I would cry...
and you would say you didn't mean it.
I trusted you!
I went home with tears in my eyes,
a red mark on my cheek.
My parents asked me, "Are you okay?'
I replied"Yes I am."
I wasn't.
I didn't want to be with you anymore,
but my heart wanted you forever.
My body,
my mind,
wanted to leave.
I told my parents,
they told the police,
'cause I was 15,
and you were 18,
which was illegal anyway.
It was more illegal 'cause you beat me.
Why am I such a fool...
'cause my heart still wants you?
But my mind,
my body are over you!
My mind,
my body,
are still trying to heal,
from all you wounds.
Now here I stand not trusting anyone
but my family.
And myself.
And there you are,
standing behind bars.
~Jessica Lynn Evan~
