Going numb and feeling nothing
rape me again bff
beat me again friends and family
make me cut
make me bleed
make me go all the way'
you did that for 5yrs
now i just walk the world
as if i have no soul
nothing to grasp
i planned my death
because of you
i planned to die
on my upcoming birthday
to end my life
in the one place i felt safe
that felt like heaven to me
its time to bid my last farewell
i lived and felt more pain in all ways
then i felt love or happy
i smile a fake smile
