Why do I love him?
Maybe its because as soon as he smiles and starts laughing (either his little baby laugh or his "this is so hilarious" laugh)
I melt. That sounds so mushy gushy. But I think it's just he way he looks so happy and when he looks at me, like he couldn't be happier that I was there.
Or the way he can just look at me for a second and i catch him smiling at me.
Or when he picks on me but laughs and smiles all cute and such.
Or the way when you're walking and talking to him and he leans into you to talk.
Or when we were in the theatre with each other and we'd make lame jokes.
Or the way i swear we were leaning in closer together during the movie.
Or when we cuddled at my friends house, and just sat there together.
Or the way he smiles when he sees im staring at him.
Or the way he plays cool when i catch him looking at me.
Or the way he generally flirts.
Or his stupid smile.
Or the way i could tell him everything.
Or the way i felt everyday because i knew he was there.
Or how happy i am when i see him.
Or his lame little guitar thing during science.
Or him talking about snakes.
Or the look on his face when he sings you a song.
Or how funny he looks when he dances.
Or his hugs.
Or the way i think of him constantly.
Or the way i pretend i don't like him.
Or the way i get jealous when he talks about other girls.
Or the way i hope he misses me, even though i know he doesnt.
Or how even if he is mean to me, i cant stop liking him.
Or being harry potterheads with him.
Or being weird and him not caring and just being weird with me.
Or the way i always compare other guys to him, even if im not trying.
Or the way i smile when i think of him.
Or when i think if all our little talks.
Or the way i remember how we said we loved each other in french because it was our thing.
Or the way i remember talking to him 24/7.
And the time he write "i love her" on his hand for all to see.
Or the way im crying from writing this because i miss everything. But then I snap back into reality and remember that he is internally in love with Someone else. Even though she doesn't like him.. Ugh. I really wish I could get over him.
But I just don't get how I love him so much..
