Is This How It Happened?

If you only knew..
how much I cared,
how much I loved you.
I told you to stop..
to let it go.
Maybe you did need help,
you shouldn't have come back.
But it doesn't matter now,
you wouldn't stop..
I told you to stop..
you ignored me,
ignored my calls,
ignored my texts,
ignored my desperate attempts
to stop you.
You didn't realize how easy it would be
to push yourself too far-
and I didn't realize
how easy it would be
to lose someone
I'd been trying so hard to protect.
I don't think that's how it happened.
Although it seems logical,
is this really how it happened..
or was it something else?
Maybe it was someone else-
someone jealous
of what we had..
or someone who didn't approve.
Can I show them how hurt I am?
They got what they wanted.
You dead,
me hurt.
Maybe I'm over-thinking this.
Maybe it was you.
Maybe you were pushed to do it-
or maybe you had too much.
I don't believe that though.
I don't want to sleep
until I know the truth.
I loved you.
& Everyone I love
can't end up dead.