Can i Be Found

Dont know if im alive or dead
When i sleep i dont dream
Like i took to-two the head
I suffer from flashbacks
Every now and then
Out of no where they attack
Im i trapped in a early grave?
Is this suffering going to bring me rage?
Where do i go from here i dont know
This pain it burns slow
My tears they dont show
They locked behind my smiles
My smiles block my pain
You cant see it im insane
This world is hell
We all built to fail
But born to win
Its so eazy just to sin
A million people but no friends
Im living life but walk lost
Is this a dream or is this really hell?
Been here so long i cant tell..