Once Upon A Time.

Once upon a time,
I had so many friends.

Once upon a time,
I had everything..

Life was in the palm of my hands.

Then suddenly,
Everything changed.

I had no friends,
I had a Boyfriend that abused me,
My family stopped caring,
And my parents got divorced.

Life has never been the same ever since.

When I was 5 my brother would rape me and told me not to tell,
So I never did.
And haven't since then..

Life is so miserable,
And filled with so much hurt.

I've thought about death for years,
And I've put it off,
And put it off.
Because I'm hoping one day,
Everything will be good again.

Crying, and pleading for life to be good again.
But God won't answer.
Where is he?
Where is this mastermind?

Nowhere to be found.

Life for me has no meaning.

One day,
I'll be hanging in my closet or somewhere on the beach.
Either way,
My past will always haunt me.