Good poem with deep mean.

Thanks steven I appreciate it :) :)

Awesome carry on

Thanks sweetheart happy you liked it .....:)

Very nice, love it. :)

I really like the idea of this piece. I know how it feels to be surrounded by 'beauty' but not 'see' it. Some might call it ingrateful, but it is hard to appreciate the beauty around us when our lives are a complete mess.
A little editing with this piece would read better:

"but why the hell couldn't I see
all the roses that were surrounding me(?)"

A question mark would emphasize the importance of the question and make the reader actually think about it. Without punctuation, we as readers, would skip it.
Using 'hell' here like a swear word is usually a no-no in poetry, but to me, it quite fits. The mentioning of 'heaven', then 'hell' made this better. Nice.

"Iam not asking for forgiveness"
I am

"my heart is not full of regrets
even know I was guilty"

'Regrets' is used as a noun here, so using guilt as a noun would be more fitting.
My suggestion: "my heart is not full of regrets, though I am filled with guilt"
See the difference?

"but that was my choise and this is my reality"
typo on choice

"I don't care about what they say
I don't live yesterday.... but today
I don't care if it's black or white
I don't care if it's truth or lie"

I must say, the repetition did you a favor here. Great job

"trust me and listen carfully"
typo on carefully

"cuz what ever you know you will never know"

I was skeptical with the use of 'cuz' here because that's only used in informal English, but I'll let it pass because it fits and shows more of the author's personality.

"what knid of surprise the life will offer to
you
but what ever happened and what ever
comes to you"

Too many 'what'. Expand on what that is.
Typo on 'kind' by the way.

"be sure that that piece of heaven is still
looking back
at you"

I'm quite fond of the ending. The message I got is that although you are seeing only ugliness, never forget about the good things in life. Leave them as a choice. Great piece overall. Keep writing :)
-X

Thank you ...:)

But why the hell couldn't I see ?

all the roses that were surrounding me... wel done my dear true grateness x