I try, and try,
but no matter how hard
I try,
I can't help feeling like I'm
going to cry.
Why does life have to be
so cruel?
Why does life have to hurt?
All my life, I've felt nothing,
but pain and hate.
As though my fate was to be
this way.
All I wanted was to be loved.
When I finally can be loved,
I don't know how to react.
Never being loved in my life,
how does one know how to respond?
I try to open up,
to bring them closer to me.
But end up only pushing them
away from me.
I try to please them,
but feel like I have to prove
to them that I love them,
even tho I don't know how.
I try to best the person
I can be.
But that is obviously not
happening no matter what I do.
What do I do to make things work?
What do I do to not fear life anymore?
What can I do?
