Never Will i Ever

Never will i ever, experience first love
The uneven heartbeat, the blushing of my cheeks
Never will i ever, kiss my child's head
Feel her soft hair, look into her innocent eyes
Never will i ever, bring peace, like a dove
Stop wars in the world, or in my family
Never will i ever, see the light of day
The sun, peeking over the horizon, something i took for granted
Never will i ever, be on the earth, to stay
Not visiting, but living, not a guest, but a dweller
Never will i ever, waste the day away
Swing on swings, and smell the grass, look at the sky as the clouds roll past
Never will i ever, find a four leaf clover
A goal I've had since i was little, searching patches for hours
Never will i ever, do many things i wish i had, for i am gone, my time is over