Me and Time in Dreams of You

Wandering thoughts
Time slows down
Passion and lust turn to love and life
Trying to find our way in the night
Looking everywhere for a light
My heart swells tight
Confusion and pain twist to make nonsense seem common
In this walking away is not an option
I am sure and I will keep trying
A parade of thoughts trace across
What the future brings is no longer a mess
This is what we make of it, no working guess or hypothesis
Would not have it any other way
And lay down my life today
God I want to be a man
Who said you need a rifle in your hand
Banging my head into the wall
For so long was almost blind thinking it would fall
Could not take it at all
Then an angel came to the fight
With giggles and tears, sweet words filled me so right
Could not think straight
It was meant to be but seemed as an allusive fate
Just should have known we'd be made to wait
Never going to leave this last gate
Into hell or heaven or a mix so right
Am not going anywhere tonight
As I live in my dreams
You are closer than you seem
Wrapped around my heart like a scream
Waives in air going everywhere
Dancing around without a care
Forgetting this is me here
Blowing holes in my reality
Shattering the strong with purity
Unconsidered and lively
Pain is my safety
Keep me free from diversity
Normal and expected is lonely
Bring me back to my reality
Fill the holes with joyful song
put me back together and don't take to long
Thoughts and death be gone
No more hurt or nets for the fallen
For they have gone and are flying
I am no longer cry'n
Not going to leave even after dying

Been tested before but now not going to let it effect me,
will somehow get by till then like a raft in the ocean
Riding the tide and trying to hold up the sky
If swallowed then live I will eternally
More than flesh I am, ideas are immortally free
Nothing can stop or slow me