Six

Six years,
that's how many we spent together
were they all a waste?
or were they just a taste
of what all relationships might be like?
I know I was wrong
to hold on for so long,
but it was so hard for me realize
all the real lies you were constantly feeding me
until the day I opened my eyes and saw it all so clear:
you were legitimately not cut out for me
we were so young when we met
and we both changed a lot over the years
I really did love you, but I'm not sure if you really felt the same
we sure got a lot of laughs with time
but there were still just too many tears
you lost my trust,
and you lost my respect
you thought you were slick and had me hooked
like a fish on a line
you thought you could stop caring and trying
because no matter what, we would be fine
you tricked me, used me, manipulated me,
disrespected me
I kissed your pasty, white butt like your mother
just so I could see that smile on your face
I tried hard, I worked hard, I bowed down to you like no other
but I saw straight through you,
looked past the hate, looked past all the lies
I tried to pretend we were both perfectly happy
even though all I ever did was compromise
the only thing you ever compromised was our relationship
you made the world think we'd be the perfect couple
with a perfect wedding
we'd have cats and dogs and a white picket fence
surrounding a pristine house with pretty kids and perfect parents
it would have made the perfect setting
for neighborhood gatherings and dinner parties
but all you wanted to do was work
and stare at your computer screen
you were so oblivious to the truth
standing right under your nose
I bet you never thought I would leave,
I bet you never thought I could ever be so mean
I was done with you,
so I just turned away
and flushed six years of our lives together right down the drain
there was just too much stress,
too much of a strain
to keep pretending that you were mr. perfect
all while knowing I'd just be settling
for much less than I deserved
I was sick of you nosing around and meddling
in all my business
you stopped caring, so I stopped fighting
we finally broke up,
and I just assume that's why I'm writing
so I can say I know now how better off I am
without you weighing me down
I can breath again and just take a sigh of relief
my life is my own now, and it's for the taking
I have my faith back, and my belief
in the good of the world as a whole has been restored
I don't know whether to hate you
or thank you
for making me stronger and braver
I can do anything without you
I don't need you
I don't miss you
I don't love you
I have everything without you.