Dont want to fake the embrace
feel like something of a disgrace
I hate not knowing where Im going
trailin' and my knees are weak and slowin'
I go back to what takes me away
I go back to what makes the memory grey
I dont have nikes to run fast enough
All of this junk seems to just pile up
Keep trying to escape reality
Yet your still livin' in it everyday
Feelin' like just another casuality
Thought youd make it out one day
Your dreams they seem far
Your hopes seem to just disappear
all thats trapped in your mind is fear
What do you propose we do from here?
Ive tried to give it up, to face that shit
All these people just tell me to quit
To quit what? running. pretending.
Creating a false reality to sit in
Well fckit' im done. Ive had enough.
Ive been holding back anger for years
All bottled up in all these tears
I come to you like you can fix it.
Well then do something, tell me how.
sobriety sucks when you dont want to allow
that pain to sneak back and slap you in the face
What do you want from me GOD?!
I already know im a fckin' disgrace.
..Or atleast thats how it feels like today.
