When i go back home,
i have to face my wife.
I have to tell her something,
that is going to change her life.
I know that she knows what I'm going to say,
because she has been reading my poems every single day.
I do feel guilty what i do to my wife,
she deserves so much better than i can now provide.
Its all down to me the choice that i have made,
i don't make it lightly i still feel afraid.
But i do know that if i don't carry it through,
i will look back with regret and that just won't do.
She has never done anything to make me turn away,
i am the bastard that's what they all will say.
I have to tell my boys what i am going to do,
its something that i am not looking forward to.
I am going to keep them an important part of my life,
I hope that she agrees and doesn't make them take sides.
It will be hard for both of us i know,
all that we have built up will melt away like snow.
I can make no excuse what i do to you,
i just hope that we can bring the next two weeks through.
And work things out before i have to go,
i can say nothing more words won't make anything right.
And i understand if you want to put up a fight,
i deserve all i get it isn't down to you.
I am the guilty party here,
and i will honour what you say and do.
