It's Just Me

Maybe I over touch
Over think
Over feel
According to the process of others

Maybe I overcompensate
Or under compensate
Because of what I've seen and done
Been through

I might overindulge in flesh
Food, drink, merriment
Getting lost in joy
To forget my pain

Perhaps I love selfishly
Expecting from others, what I give of myself
Love has no expectations
People do

Sometimes I am spontaneous
Impulsive, running on instinct
Thoughts to words, unscripted
Like so many fear to be

I close myself off when I am hurt
Vulnerable
When you're young
That's how you survive

Maybe it's too deeply ingrained
Pictures of what people have been
Constantly replaying in my mind
Sometimes you can't afford to forget

I don't always practice what I preach
It's not easy to take your own advice
As much as you don't trust others
You don't trust yourself either

Pitfalls of the human condition
An eternal search for gratification
Asking questions only time can answer
Hiding answers inside ourselves

I am everything written on this page
Pages before it
Pages yet to come
I am everything