Cautious

I am so cautious
Because one point in my life I was a happy child
Now I receive pain and loneness
I seam at times like I dont care about things
But the truth is
Im just trying not to overstep
And get hurt all over again
I get silent alot
Because the subjects I want to talk about
Get me ridiculed
I pretend everything is funny
I pretend I live in a different world
To escape what we call reality
And keep the laughter going
Its the only way I can deal with the truth
Around me without ending it all