Dumbo Woman

Aching i go to bed at night, never really sleeping...just thinking until daylight,

knowing that in the morning i would feel no better.

How many times should i die before i can live again?

God i knew this would happen yet i took the risk...

maybe you are right,i am dumbo woman,

so silly, so stupid for getting myself into this wretchedness.

I feel so empty without you now i want to crawl to my grave,

dumbo woman that i am.

I knew this would happen, still i don't have regrets...it is just that

I love you so much, i am missing you painfully now... i feel so ashamed for feeling so...

You ask me not to think so much, and God! i am trying!!!

mind can pretend not to work for awhile...

but i can never stop my heart from feeling this way.

I look at my kid, I feel even worst...two lives hungry for love and affection.

What a pitiful life, and what a dumbo woman i am.

I live in a matchbox, and you live out there in the air...

I can only hold on to our memories now,

and HOPE that one day soon destiny will once again give us a chance to be together.

I miss you so much it hurts.

All because i am a dumbo woman.