Beautifully Broken

So tired of being here, sitting and waiting
Pacing, and lying, am i still dreaming
My body is telling me not to
My mind is telling me think it through
The door is wide open out to the unknown
Wanting to leave, i and i alone
But the force you bring just pulls me right back
Throwing the bags on the ground, telling me to unpack
I tell myself i must be crazy
To still be here feeling angry
The fire in your eyes looks so deadly
But i look at you and i see beauty
Though inside, all you are is empty

Remember when you and i didn't care
Shouting to the world, making them aware
That you and i were unstoppable
The things weve done are unforgivable
And now the time has come
The tie that held us both has come undone
Were not the same any more
We don't even do the things we did before
Sometimes i see you yelling at yourself in the mirror
Telling yourself that youre a survivor
That you don't need none of this humor
That you'll no longer abuse any liquor
Because you want us to have a future

But things change....

You must hate me so much you cant look me in the eyes
You just walk away not even telling me goodbye
You move on like nothing ever happened
The scar on my heart just got deepened
Everywhere i go i see your face
I try to run away as if im on a race
I keep falling and my knees are bleeding
Im crying for you to stop don't you see me pleading
At this moment i feel no emotion
I cant get up as i have no motivation
I know it takes a lot of determination
To get my wanted satisfaction
Even though i have got no destination