Walk Away

If I ever had a reason to live, it was a reason not good enough for me to forget. I have a new reason that seems to be fit, a reason to live is to live for you. My life didn't seem to have a meaning until I met you. My heart was healed, and broken for your heart and love was already taken. Believe me or not when I say you're an inspiration to the things I do. But, you will never be mine, you already belong to another, another that carries your heart, and treasures your love, so I act like I don't give a fck, but I can't get you out of my head. So I lay in my bed hoping to wake up dead, though those are emotions I don't want to feel, it just brings me to tears that I will never have you, and I feel it is you who I have been searching for, for years. But, I have to accept the fact, I need to step back, and walk away from you. Which seems to be the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I call this blind love, for it is love I am forbidden to express to you, but every time I see you, my heart begins to feel blue, I don't expect you to understand except to accept that my words, my feelings, and my heart, it's all true. The blind love I have for you, the kind of love that kills me inside, to keep remembering you will never be at my side. I remember a quote I once heard. "Every man needs a woman when his life is a mess, because just like in a game of chess; the queen protects her king". If that is true my queen then you have been stripped from me. My heart left vulnerable for the entire world to see. No one to protect me from this madness. In Death I look for it is all the gives signs of being harmless. You see it's more than just you, my entire life has been worthless. When thought came to mind that you were the one, the night mare became true so all I could do is forever run. Run away from my heat, from you, and from myself. Finding you was hard enough now to just walk away from you, I don't know how to.