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Why can't I just for once say
That I'm not doing okay?
That I'm not feeling fine
Because I have a lot of things on my mind?
I feel like I'm in a black, dark tunnel
And I can't see the light
Sometimes I really want to hide...
Escape from everything that's normal
And predictable...
I'm hesitating if this education is the right choice
Inside my head I hear this voice
A voice that's saying: ''Is this really what you want to do?''
Will this make your 'dream' about how life should be, come true?
I don't know...
Deep in my heart, I don't think so...

But I know we cannot only do what we like
Sometimes you have to do something you don't like first
To eventually get to the this-is-what-I-like-to-do and now-I-know-where-I-did-it-for part
Then you'll feel more happy and you'll have a better feeling in your heart
I know life doesn't come easily
Not always the way you want it to be...
A brother who's calling you a failure
Is something that's hurting me
A dad who has Parkinson
Also not how I wish it would be

Everyone gets sunshine and rain
Happy moments, love and pain
Of course I know I'm not the only one
But I'm still looking for the sun
For something that makes me happy
And for someone who makes me happy
I'm doing executive secretary
While my real passion is writing poems and playing piano
Then that same voice is saying: ''Is this really what you want to do?''
I think I do know
Deep in my heart, I do think so...
I'm not always good in telling people how I feel face-to-face
But the paper is giving me space
Space to write about how I feel
Because then I'm able to show feelings that are real
The words will always stay
Day by day
They will never go away
I can just clear my thoughts
And that's what's helping me a lot
And I also hope that others like the poems I make
And that they'll see the poems are anything but fake

And then there's the piano
That thing that's in a room and doesn't go
It says: ''play on me''
Let me see
How you can play
It makes my worries go away
Even if it's only for just a day...
Or maybe for a while
Playing piano makes me smile...
To music I'm addicted
Coldplay is my favorite
I like to play songs that people know, calm songs with a message in it
I want to learn how to play any song that's beautiful, bit by bit
I can do school and this
A hobby would then be all it is
And I want it to be more
Something I know for sure

What about the rest of your life?
What is important to you?
What do you truly want to do?
I don't know the answer yet...
I hope I'll figure it out...
So that eventually I won't have doubts
For all the good people out there I hope the same
That it will feel right
That at the end of the tunnel there'll be light...