Why Didn't I Realize

Is there really anything i could do
to make up for the mistakes I have made
to take back what has happened
and just try my hardest
i did not realize what i was doing
till i was to late and done to me
now im eternally sorry
it makes me wonder why
i had what i had in the first place
to realize this makes me want to die
i cant take it back
only promise
that i wont do it anymore
now that i know what it feels like
i dont want anyone to go through it anymore
but did i really need to lose the one i love to find out
did it really need to go that far
it has been grind ed into me
how i was before
i will never go back to that
but i want to go back to what i had
to get her back with my own hands
but i have lost the one i love
and now i will never be the same
to late for me to make that change