My friends are candles
Standing vigil around my bed
Protecting me from the dark
But now there is only darkness
Pulsing in and out of me
And fear twitches in my stomach
Memories flash intermittently
The anger on his face
Hangs in my mind, then goes
The first cut, I feel it twice
Thrown back years in pain
Then gone
The weight of him, and the wonder
Why I never said the word,
No. The haze settles, younger
And I am a child, watching plates
Watching numbers drop
They rise now, my body betrays
Everything I am trying to do
I want to live outside my mind
I pray for a light,
A companion, to be my guide
But the darkness is empty
