Who i am

I am a young brown eyed girl
brown hair with curls
I am depressed
almost always stressed
I am a cutter
when i close the shutter
I am alone
with no one to call my own
i have a friend
my love for him will never end
I am confused
has always been used
i am scared
didnt think he cared
I am in love
but he is years above
i am in need of affection
and not a lection
i am in need of guidance
this does not make sense
i am asking for help
i am just a kid