Hit me harder

I know what i did wasn't right
i know that I'm ruining your life

but I'm trying to be better
i promise I'm trying harder

I'm just not good enough for you
I'm just complicated
and you're frustrated
and that's my fault too

your arm flies towards me
you hit me repeatedly

how can you still hit me
when you see my eyes pleading?

but physical pain isn't so bad
i deserve it
and I've learned from it
and i guess you're the best I'll ever have

so here comes another one of those nights
this is how every kid is punished, right?

it's my fault i made a mistake
and your heart is full of hate

so again and again
you strike
just another one of those nights
and off your arm sends

I've kept it in too long
this has to be wrong

i know this isn't worth fighting for
i just don't know how much more

i can take
you might kill me
yet you feel no sympathy
but if one more bone breaks

i know I'm going to die
i can't survive this life

so hit me another time
I've made up my mind and i wont cry

you know, too
i can't fight you
no matter what i do
I'll always lose

so there's no point in even trying
i can feel my body slowly dying

with every swing your arm makes
and every kick my body takes

is just one step closer
to my happy ending
to the good place God will send me
so just hit me harder

end my pain
i don't want to do this again

hit me harder
be my murderer

I'll still love you
you're my dad
the only one I've had
I'll love you no matter what you do

it's my fault
so don't catch my fall

i messed up everything
so you didn't do anything

i deserve this death
so won't you kill me
let me die finally
let this be my last breath

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