My yearning

If i say i wanna scream
you would laugh and say am not screamer
if i say i wanna cry
you would say i would look stupid
i don't wanna smile
but you say it looks good on me
i never said i wanna look good
i wanna scream a mountain to crumble
cry till my tears turn blood
cos am as sick as hell of trying to be perfect
i just wanna screw up bad
but i cant
it's all suffocating me