I'll never call you Mother

What do you expect? I'm sorry but this hell of expectations I live in made me hard. So I'll crumble under the weight of your anger, and hide from you the scars. But the truth that seems like its been hidden forever is that you did this to me Mom, I hope your happy. You made me this suicidal b1+(h, so stop blaming me because I will never be like you!

You scream and act, Not even having a cause. Treating me like I'm worth nothing or like im a lost cause. Well one day when I get stronger or braver, ill tell you just how I feel.

I'll tell you about the fake smiles, that hid the hurt.
The abuse of your words, that so deeply penetrate.
The love I looked for in so many others, because you weren't there for me to call you Mother.

You step back in and it's too late. You lost me long ago and that will never change. So kill me more everyday, because when you find me and the floor is blood-stained, then you'll wish you would of changed.

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Not my best work, but I just needed to kind of vent...