Typos: Second stanza, second line "As my tears weaves with the rain drops," I believe "weaves" needs to be "weave." However, I am warning you that I might be totally wrong. It is one of those situations where you think you are right, but you might not be. It is just that the way you have it doesn't sound quite right to me...

Wow, this is quite a masterpiece. I always enjoy reading your poems for some reason :)

As I was reading this, I realized that you capitalized 'hell' but not 'heaven.' I was wondering why you did that - does 'hell' have a more significant meaning to you or did you just not capitalize 'heaven' by mistake?

"I feel so guilty and angry
Like a ball of fury waiting to explode
Like a grenade itching for safety lever release
Like a gun begging for a trigger
I am restless
In a state of perpetual motion within a frozen body"

^ This is a beautiful stanza right here. I can just imagine what you are going through as I read it. Kind of makes me feel the same way as well which is weird...

"I want my pain to bleed onto them
Like a disease contaminating them with pure agony
I want them to ache just as bad
as a concoction of a cluster headache and a fever
They should suffer like I suffer"

^ This stanza right here is the most powerful in this poem in my opinion. It holds so much...emotion in it that it is unbelievable. Every time I read it, I kind of have to remember to breathe afterwords - it takes my breath away. I have felt this way so many times before, and I am sure that others have as well. You just put it into words that make it come alive.

This is an epic poem in my opinion. I love it - going into my favorites :]

Excellent/powerful/brilliant
5/5