Illuminating Me

I dreamed of you last night,
regrettably,
for it's been months since I
promised that summer
would reunite us-

it's been so hard thinking back
on this eclipsed vision
and knowing that it was
your heart
that led me on....
and not my own
that could fill me with
muse.

I remember my whole body
was victim to the night
and how I was accented
by the full moon,
as if I had been a fugitive
of the forest.

Wire fences clung to the
folds of my stomach,
as I reached one hand
to try and be the evader-

but you held on to my heart
at it's most hollow time,
when I was ready to starve
rather than
keep air in my lungs.

From under the bridge
you came, for me,
with nothing in your aged arms
but warmth,
something no one told me was
mine.

And I was brought to shock
at how your eyes still sparkled
though you live
with few by your side,
you still, have the abundance
of light.

The moon tried to capture
your fine white hair,
but I forgot to be angry
at myself, at my surroundings
for leaving you lonely
without another soul.

And you told me
no one has encouraged
you, since that day
Jean gave you
all her hopes and dreams,
to see you smile
and walk onto the stage
still the same,
perfect man.

I leaned closer, all my childish
thoughts about abandonment
disappeared,

for you brought light back into
my eyes,
like the moment you first said
to never let anyone make me
believe love was not right for
a girl such as myself,
or that I could be made
an easy fool
by trying to live it.

The fence left cuts in my skin,
night racing through my
veins, and I still looked at you with
absolute heaven-sent
wonder....

Surely you weren't an illusion?

But no, you kissed my forehead
as I woke up frantically stretching
my arms, to remember your hug
caught in my arms
and realize

you're gone. Just as soon as I had
been found,
you leave my sight,

but not my heart's memory.

For you were all I needed to be
saved, and know that the moon
isn't all that illuminates,
that your love surely does
much more,
much more than God himself
may have ever comprehended.

*Dedicated to someone special in my life, who has been such a blessing to me and I believe is the most humble, saintly man in the world. He's been a teacher as well as an encourager to me in whatever I do.
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