Broken Doors&The Afterlife

If I opened up,
Would you walk in?
Would you believe me
What I'm screaming out to you?
Would you actually listen
There's nothing else you
Can say or do
Nothing more
I'm tired of trying
To knock down your doors
You'll say one thing
But I just know it's a lie
Why do I keep believing you
Like I do?
I just end up
Getting hurt even worse
I'm just sick of it!
Why don't you just
Grab a knife
Shove it in my chest
Twist a 360
And be done with it!
Do you see
What your doing to me
You say one thing
And I'm so happy
Then you say another
And I'm put down
Shut down
Then I'm back to hating you
Even more
Than I did before
Just slam your doors
In my face!
Take your key
Like I want it anyway
I'd rather be dead
Than be caught loving you!
Here are the battle lines
They lay perfectly alined
I see them,
But you draw me over
Every.Single.Time.
I end up getting wounded,
Shot in the heart!
An evil blow to my chest!
I do not
Know what's best
I want to just end it now!
Be done with you!
But I cannot
Your name
Is etched into my heart,
It's permanent stain
Is killing me!
Just go away!
Leave me be!
Why can you not see
What your doing to me!
This is making me cry
All over again
My tears run red
From all this pain;
My eyes
Finally bleed my sorrow
I feel ashamed
For ever loving you.
Maybe this pain
Will go away
If you go away
So I'm not gonna say good night
Just those two simple words
Good.Bye.