My Fear of Love

In times where I knew little,
with you by my side,
the feelings I had for you,
were hidden deep inside.

Now those days bring pain,
knowing your mind strayed,
regret lingers of how-
my cards were awfully played.

You sought a new beginning,
it lead you to my life,
but knowing your past,
is like the cut of a knife.

An overlap of people,
with whom you cared for,
though things have changed,
I want to know more.

You expressed your void,
with the words "I miss you",
now you're only friends,
but will your heart be true?

Is it her smile you need,
or the comfort of her?
My mind is all shaken,
into a darkened blur.

I know you love me now,
and perhaps half back then,
but ask yourself this;
is she only just a friend?

You were both once lovers;
she remains dear to you,
I only need to know that,
those feelings are through.

You're the one who said,
you don't talk as much,
but with a sad face,
it was said as such.

Not knowing your heart,
brings me down each day,
I feel utterly torn,
for feeling this way.