Astray

How I dream of nights like these,
when I knew nothing that was
planned,
all I heard were thoughts of
thunder- and I asked you
to walk outside with me.

Of course, you never
answered my call,
as I sat by the telephone
dismayed
because I knew you were
only down the road,
and I wanted to run
and hold you to me.

But the rings of ruby
and the waterfalls of ivory
still stream without you....

at this windowpane I stand,
my feet moaning from
being alone,
from cranking the window
open to hear nothing
of you, only of others
who are there.

And all the fireworks
dance in the air, like
diamonds that speak
then drop to the ground,
to the lovers below.

I still hear the screams of
joy from the crowd,
even though I'm miles away,
and I dream that you are
watching too,
and that someday,
we'll be a part of those
families,

who can only stare in awe
and know that their love
for the early July
will bring their hands closer.

How I wish we could be

but you struck apart
from my heart,
and I could only trace
the ashes from it....

I can't see the fireworks
anymore, it's only
their cinders
that I presume are
living in the dark
without you-
praying to survive
on the only
left memories,
that somehow

still burn.

6/23/2012 at 10:57 am.