Forever Waiting

Look me in they eyes for once and tell me I'm right
You know I cry myself to sleep every single night
Too proud to ever apologize, too selfish to even care
Too stupid to understand anything, too coward to dare
That's who you are, or who you turned out to be
You told me I loved the person you had let me see
Now the hardest part is learning how to let go
of someone you loved all along and got to know
Although you believed so, I didn't get my hopes up high
I just let myself believe the biggest and sweetest lie
Don't blame me for loving you, it wasn't just a choice
Even if I don't say so,
I wish I could hear your soft voice
But now we're strangers
because whatever we had is over
All that I can be is your friend, not a partner, not a lover
That is impossible for me
because you hurt me but it's fine
I can't and I will never hate you for not being mine
But sometimes all I need and ask for is to be left alone
I feel betrayed, ignored, used, unloved, unknown
Never mind, I just want you to be happy no matter what
Whether you've found someone or not, there's no but
I just wish you tried a little harder just to understand
That I'll never stop dreaming of holding your hand.