This Love Is Going To Kill Me

I need to be with you so badly.
I want you next to me so that
I don't miss you anymore.
I just want you here next to me.

I want to give you all my heart,
and let you hold it for as long as you wish,
having your word that you won't
take advantage of it.

I dream of you, being my by side,
oh words can't describe how beautiful you look.
You just lay there, sleeping, breathing heavily.
You don't touch my shoulders, you don't hold my hand.

You do nothing sweet, but yet you're so sweet.
You are not being romantic, but I can feel the romance.
You open your eyes, you toss and turn, you drink,
and you're still the most precious thing I've ever seen.

No one will ever understand how I can be so foolish,
until they see my love for you through my young eyes.
Maybe it's because I'm young and therefore naive,
maybe it's because I'm not yet mature enough.

But what if it's a lot more than that? What if it's real?
Will I ever stop thinking about you being my everything?
Will I ever be able to love another the way I love you now?
Will I find someone as good as you who will replace you?

I can't know. I don't want to know for I want to hope.
I want to hope for a change in my dull life.
I want to hope for another chance to finally be with you.
I want to hope that one day you'll wake up missing me.

So many things I want to tell you and they all disappear.
I can't understand why but I somehow need you in my life.
Mean voices screaming you're not worth the wait,
colourful butterflies keep reminding me you're the one.

If you love me -or at least care-
If I'm happy, I want you to be my wide smiles.
If I'm excited, I want you to be the reason.
If I'm still alive, I want you to be my life.
If I get depressed, I want you to be my therapy.
If I get sick, I want you to be my medicine.

If you don't love me
If I get poisoned, I want you to be the poison.
If I get shot, I want you to be that one bullet.
If I'm dying, I want you to be my last breath.
And if I die young, I want you to be my death.
Sweetheart, Ι want you to be the last face I'll ever see.