Why?....

You keep telling me i need help..
do i ?
i know im slowly pushing you and everyone who "cares" away..
so why do you want to help me?
just let the darkness consume me
i dont belong in the light... it hurts to be in it
just let me go..
before i hurt you ...
my heart is dead,
you cant help me its to late...so stop trying .....please im begging you.
stop.
i just want to fade away ...
its not like anyone would care..
I've only ever been a burden to the ones around me.
so please leave me be
with all my pain,suffering,sorrow,fear
untill theres nothing left of me
and i can disappear....