Inside myself is a deep hole were my soul should be but it's gone, all thats left is a dark cold gapeing wound and a silent voice screaming out for help but knowone hears a sound. they just see a friendly smile my tears stay solid like the ground. if only they could look through my eyes deep inside they'd see ,the pain,and hurt i feel inside thats slowly killing me.
This is a pain to deep for words to express,too deep for cuts or drugs nothing can reach this pain of mine there is nothing left for me.As I watch the days go by I die a little more inside slowly falling apart. I try to reach out for help but the words just won't come out.
I just want to give in,give up I want to be free but nothing helps anymore not the love of friends or faimly.not one can comprehend this sea of desperation that has become of me.I'm trying to hang on but I want it all to end.I dnt want to hurt anyone by this or make others feel bad.i Jst can't take the pain anymore. I'm sure my mom would understand. I wish to be as free as she in a world were feelings are bland. I ask for forgiveness but this trap takes part of me. If only you knew what it was like you would find I'm lost inside and always I shall be.
