19th

Our love story is not so simple and boring,
it's not just another typical love story,
for you are I, are complicated.

I've always thought I was the only one,
I didn't think I'd find someone like me,
someone as complicated as I would be.

But then I found you, it changed my life,
changed the way I'm thinking and all I do,
you became the best part of who I am.

We were so far away, but I became your girl.
You said you were so sure about that,
It was 19th July 2011, 5 am in the morning.

We would talk for hours and smile all the time,
we enjoyed each other's company and laughed,
we fought about stupid things and felt guilty.

It wasn't a perfect relationship but it was pure,
until you said you made out with a friend of yours
and broke my heart for the very first time.

I was hurt, I cried, I sobbed, I was mad at you,
but it was all so very different the next day,
when I looked at you and forgave you right away.

Your birthday was coming up and I was so excited
and sad at the same time 'cause I couldn't spend it with you.
19th October is your birthday, what a nice day.

But you had several problems that made you distant,
we started talking less, we drifted away
until one day, on 19th November, you left me.

Words won't ever describe the pain I felt back then,
but I never stopped hoping you'd come back to me.
I waited till we got back together on December 19th.

You broke up with me, two days later. What a shame.
You got another girlfriend 7 days after that.
Yes, it broke my heart but I never left your side.

I waited and waited, couldn't believe that was all,
I wouldn't let you go like that because I loved you.
One day, you came back to me and thanked me.

You were being so sweet and kind again,
you actually realized I had been waiting for you,
and thanked me for not leaving you alone.

I thought we were going to get back together
and forget about the painful past we two had,
but something changed and you became insecure.

We didn't talk for a while, I started ignoring you,
I let you message me first, I didn't push you,
I wanted to see if you really cared about me.

July 2nd was the day you asked me to date you.
Isn't it strange how I stayed up till 6 am
just to hear you calling me your girlfriend?

It's the third time I'm dating you, and it's not the same.
But there are so many similarities that scare me,
I don't think it's a coincidence but I can't be sure.