To whom It May Concern

To whom it may concern
I'm not writing this for you,
I'm writing this for me,
to let out all the sadness and pain,
that other people cannot see,
most people think I'm dumb,
but they just don't care enough,
to see through me,
they think I'm OK,
but really I'm not,
they think just because i smile,
I'm happy,
but in reality thats far from the truth,
I'm the girl, that has death on her mind,
never thought she can go through life,
cuts on her wrist, just to show that shes alive,
people cringe at the sight,
they just don't understand,
just because I'm not them,
they think they have a right,
to judge, spread rumors, and make me cry at night,
once again,
ill never be OK,
sleeping all day, sleeping all night,
Do you listen I'm not alright