Hiding Behind Bars

I'm writing this to make you see
I think you should give up on me.
It feels like such a waste of time,
I don't think you'll ever be mine.

I know I cannot let you in,
my insecurities always win.
The past has left me with too many scars
so I put my wall up and stay behind bars.

It's safer for me to be on my own,
I can't get hurt if I'm alone.
You must think I am being unfair
or maybe that I just don't care.

I am not playing hard to get
but there are things I can't forget.
I have already been hurt so much
and now I am scared of people's touch.

I've watched you try for many years
but you can't cure my deepest fears.
I think it's best if you just go
because behind my mask you'll never know.

I can never be more than your friend
so let me go, this has to end.

Saffie
21

5/6/12