Decode

Every guy that ever kissed me
I could feel the boiling in your blood
As you tasted jealousy on your tongue
But I blew it off every time
Assumed you just thought they were jerks
Never believed that you would hurt
It's not like you said a single word
It's not like you did anything to make it work

How was I supposed to know
That you loved me, too
I can't just read your mind
And know the things you're gonna say or do
If your lips were never once close to mine
And your hand was too slippery to hold
How was I supposed to decode

What about all the times
I pushed my body towards yours
You would seem so disgusted walking out the door
You mean to tell me that you wanted it
How would I have seen
That from a second's gaze at me
It was fairly difficult to breathe

How did I become so blind
From what's been brewing inside
Tell me, how many tears have you cried
Trying to hide the dreams of you and I
And after all that trying and all these years
You'll have to fight back new tears

Because I quit trying to steal your heart
A long, long time ago