Conviction

I lay awake at night
just missing you
and hating the fact that your away,
all the while I try to convince myself
the very opposite of what I feel.
Your on my mind every second of the day
all though I think somethings not right
and I try to convince myself that your just another guy
and that if I let go, you'll hurt me like all the rest
but then your so nice and such a great guy,
you seem to good to be true.
Do you really care for me or
is all of this a show?
I'm so scared of so many things
that I sit here, thinking I'm smart
that I've learned from my other relationships
but really dose that help
because I can still make so many mistakes.
I'm really liking you a lot
and I'm missing you like crazy
but I'm convincing my heart and myself .