Love makes everything hurt

I'm not okay and everything hurts
I have no one at my back
No one to hold me when I need it
My pillows are long since tear stained

I'm not okay and everything hurts
I am falling into a chasm
one of my own creation
I never wanted to fall in love

I'm not okay and everything hurts
No matter how far I run
it's not far enough to escape the pain
or how much love you'll never truly return

I'm not okay and everything hurts
I want only to see you smile
and to know I caused it