Nobody knows exactly,
what my sorrow is about,
some may know im sad,
well they used to know
now they think im happy,
all ok and in great shape,
some even believe,
in the fake smiles i give.
they wil never know,
about my sleepless nights,
or the time i cry myself to sleep,
they will never know,
how depressed i am,
it would be bad for me.
my mom almost hates me,
she cant stop being mad at me,
my house has become a place
where i dont want to be.
my dad is sick,
always has headaches,
we dont know why,
but its probably related to his probable cancer.
F almost hates me,
for not trusting him anymore,
he likes to make me feel guilty,
and he also is always sad for no reason,
except stupid exagerated ones.
E, with so much troubles,
she cant even speak to me alone,
without breaking down in cries,
her soul is very troubled.
I, i cant even trust her,
i dont think i ever did,
but she seems to want me to fall,
so i have to be extremely happy in front of her.
D is the last one,
the one i always trusted,
but the one who hurt me the most in the past.
right now hes the one who knows the most,
about all my secret and hidden pain.
loneliness is killing me right now,
fear is what keeps me alive,
hatred is the thing that keeps me having feelings,
and silence is my slow killer
i just want to escape it all,
i know its gonna go away,
but i just camt stand this...
please, make it go away
