Goodbye To An Old Friend...

I often sit and wonder
Just why I'm on this earth
So many times Ive contemplated
What my life could be worth

And it bother me sometimes
At the things that i have done
The people Ive hurt in the process
When i thought it was just a Lil fun.

See not everybody
Sees the world through my eyes
Not everyone on this planet
Knows when I'm joking or telling lies

What if i had been different
Would i have hurt these people so
Would i have changed things
Should i have let these people know?

That maybe i was sorry
Sorry for causing them pain
That if i could change the past
I wouldn't have done it again

See i knew this girl for ages
We were sort friends through school
I remember being so jealous of her
Everything she did seemed so cool

And Primary had finished
High school was a new phase
I wouldn't even speak to her
Or give her the time of day

And slowly but surely
The years and time did past
Its not like we were close or nothing
Its not like i needed our friendship to last

So she moved on as i did
We lived our separate lives
All the while the days when we were young
Couldn't help but play on my mind

I hadn't seen her in ages
I was surprised not to run into her of late
When i did bump into an old mutual friend
Who told me of her fate

She felt as though no one loved her
She even hated herself
I thought this couldn't be the girl
I was once jealous of myself?

So on her formal night
She put on her gorgeous dress
She did her hair and make up
There's no doubt she looked her best

And on this fateful night
My old friend took a rope
She hung herself to death
It must've been her last hope.

What if i had told her
All those years ago
How much i wanted to be her
And how i envied her so

Maybe she'd still be here
Maybe i could've offered her advice
Just so she new someone cared
Maybe she'd still have her life.

So the reason I'm writing this
Is to get my message out
Tell those people you love
Just how much you care about...

Them, because tomorrow is not promised to us
And it may be just too late
You don't want them leaving this world
Not telling them how you really felt upon this date!